Sunday, March 17, 2013

Happy Saint Patrick's Day


If anyone needs reminding WHY this day's known for folk wearing green
(and I should think, most people DO),
here's a really good one.

The Wearing of the Green-(Dion Boucicault)

Oh, Paddy dear, did you hear the news that's going 'round?
The shamrock is forbid by law to grow on Irish ground
Saint Patrick's Day no more to keep, his color can't be seen
For there's a bloody law again' the Wearing of the Green.
I met with Napper Tandy and he took me by the hand
And he said "How's poor old Ireland and how does she stand?"
"She's the most distressful country that ever yet was seen
For they're hanging men and women there for Wearing of the Green."

She's the most distressful country that ever yet was seen
For they're hanging men and women there for Wearing of the Green.

Then since the color we must wear is England's cruel red
Sure Ireland's sons will never forget the blood that they have shed
You may pull the shamrock from your hat and cast it on the sod
But 'twill take root and flourish there, though underfoot 'tis trod.
When laws can stop the blades of grass for growing as they grow
And when the leaves in summertime their verdure dare not show
Then I will change the color too I wear in my caubeen*
But 'til that day, please God, I'll stick to Wearing of the Green.

She's the most distressful country that ever yet was seen
For they're hanging men and women there for Wearing of the Green.

But if at last our color should be torn from Ireland's heart
Her sons, with shame and sorrow, from the dear old Isle will part
I've heard a whisper of a land that lies beyond the sea
Where rich and poor stand equal in the light of Freedom's day.
Ah, Erin, must we leave you, driven by a tyrant's hand
Must we seek a mother's blessing from a strange and distant land
Where the cruel cross of England shall never more be seen
And where, please God, we'll live and die, still Wearing of the Green.

She's the most distressful country that ever yet was seen
For they're hanging men and women there for Wearing of the Green.

*"Caubeen" is an Irish word for a certain type of hat, similar to a beret.

Saturday, March 9, 2013

A Legacy of Suffering


     It's clear to me that the debate over targeted murder, execution, and assassination of America's "enemies" is full of a great many contradictions. Not the least of which is, why so many persons I once knew (and a great many more I never did) who once were opposed to the Vietnam War are so reticent, silent, and approving of the current administration and its policies.
     I guess it's because they want to keep on believing that this president is, actually, a nice, friendly human being who only seeks peace and love and harmony between nations. In my mind he's done nothing of the sort. His real legacy is the thousands of shattered lives, the blown-off arms, legs, hands, feet, and heads of at least 175 innocent children and several thousands more adults. The ruined lives of mothers, sisters, husbands, brothers. The only thing different about the innocent hundreds of thousands slain in Vietnam under Johnson and Nixon (and Ford) and the thousands done to death by drones in Pakistan and Afghanistan is the magnitude of numbers, and the ethnicity and skin color. The people who look different across the river are still dying for being the people across the river who look different. It isn't going to help them like us any more or any better, y' think?
     The Obama administration has engaged upon a hazardous and slippery slope, by way of their utter imbecility when engaged in what Sun Tzu called the Art of War. You might take this with a grain of salt, coming from a committed lifelong antiwar zealot, but, no matter how many times soldiers come back from a war to tell the home crowd "it was all for a heaping pile of stinking bullshit", still the home crowd cheer and praise and wave the bloody flag: after all  they're "our" team. And the leaders ride the wave of vengeance roughshod over whatever last remaining vestiges of humanity remain, citing the same old lame cliches about "our national security" our "sacred" homeland, their "honor and sacrifice" and blablabla.
     How many more have to die to justify and satisfy the thirst for revenge over 9-11-01? 
     Let alone the great incompetents, they couldn't even bring Bin Laden to justice, alive, in NYC for a trial at the scene of the crime. The leaders have decided we the American public, like little children, do not deserve to see all the evidence gathered at the scene of Bin Laden's execution- even as they granted his deepest desire: martyrdom at the hands of the U.S. Government. Whether or not "the fog of war" obscured the desire to apprehend and bring before a court of law the most infamous heinous world actor since...<?> Well, you get the idea. Just as they did after the assassination of John Kennedy, the powers that be decided to lock away the full evidence  of the event forever.  Perhaps because Hif Majeftie and Duchess Clinton have guilty consciences- that the plan to rope in the dragnet ended with a gunshot and not the slam of a jail cell? Who knows. I cannot speak to nor fathom the minds of those who claim to represent us.
     What I can speak to is that those who seek high office, in this case, the most powerful office in the entire world, have sociopathic motives to begin with. Almost my entire lifetime I have seen nothing but sociopaths elected president- you almost need to be one, to lust for the Absolute Power that holding this office often represents. There are two other branches of our government, yes, but if Republicans most often write unconstitutional legislation, it seems most often, that Democrats sign it. Therefore there is hardly any leg for either party to stand on when it comes to contempt for the Constitution as it was intended- and the Supreme Court are hardly a worthy recipient of our trust any longer, either. And, more importantly, as Senator Paul asked the other day, "If you happen to be the son of a bad person, is that enough to kill you?" That, I would submit to a candid world, is the $1,000.oo question this president is too cowardly to answer. 
     You have to be nuts to want That Job, and whoever does, deserves every grey hair they get. The legacy of any President, apparently, is a trail of suffering left in their wake. Here they gave a Nobel Peace Prize to one who did nothing more extraordinary than get elected! Allen Ginsberg said "All presidents go to a diamond hell."& the older I get and the more I experience, the more I believe this is true. Don't ask me for my sympathy, or my vote- I've known too few years of my lifetime with my nation at PEACE with the rest of the world to believe you'll do any better. And unless you understand, that killing for peace IS like fucking for virginity, I'm afraid, you're doomed to several more incarnations in this hell until you wise up. After all, you asked for it.


Wednesday, February 27, 2013

Mother Nature: Her Last Stand in Silicon Valley (Part 2)

     Here we are, updating what has proven to be perhaps my most widely read article. Where we left off one year ago, my roommate and I had been forced into moving from this little enclave of ecological pastoralism to a smaller by a hundredth part apartment, on the opposite side of town. We were under the impression that work on the project (a co-housing development) would begin within weeks.
     Just three days ago it came to our attention that the developers have finally moved to begin work- one year later AND just two years- to the day- of the death of the man most responsible for renovating the old farmhouse and keeping it in a condition- such that it, as a historical landmark- would be considered for salvage, while all the other tree-butchery and the like went forward. Our friend Kurt Keiffer.
     All of the trees but two have been tagged for either removal or destruction. They recognize the market value of olive trees- at least, those will find new homes. But the large live oaks, the carob tree, the many pines and black walnuts- having outlived, apparently their aesthetic use for humanity- will soon meet the chainsaw. The large acreage will then be applied bulldozer and backhoe and work will begin creating the vast underground parking complex. The house will be removed- after they are done tearing off the kitchen, back porch, and half the attic- and set on the lot at another angle, so that the back door will now become the front door, and set upon new foundations.
     While we are happy we found new quarters "in time" it has been a lot longer than the excuse claimed by the developers as the cause of our own relocation. And like much of the Midpeninsula, another wild space- home to hundreds of birds and other creatures- now falls to the fell greed of the hand of Man.

Saturday, February 16, 2013

State of the Mind Post-Valentines 2-2013

   Here we are almost a month has gone by and no posts. Well... Life has been quite busy, what with, the latest developments in job search (once again, I refuse to go into discussing my relation to the economy) and the latest abominations oozing from the office of the Killer-in-Chief, which I do not feel like stating (once more, I said it well a year ago, I said it as best I could about a month or so ago, and I continue to be unimpressed by those developments in any positive fashion) and because I have been fiendishly working on pre-publishing editing, as well as writing a sequel to what will be, a "first" ebook with my collaborator.
   Big long-winded compound run-on sentence, huh? Well the only rules worth keeping aren't the ones worth breaking, so, deal. Anyway- so far as tending the garden goes, last night my upstairs neighbor- who's a recent emigre from Russia- brought us down three little cucumber starts she started on their balcony patio- they get a lot more sun than we do and it's almost too early to get more things going just yet- these I transplanted this morning and am crossing my fingers I do not lose their fruit to our many voracious squirrels hereabouts... I am now sitting on my first pot of homegrown carrots- many are small and spindly, but there's a number of nice fat "long" ones... the cauliflower plant has not yet decided to crown, hoping to see that happen in a month or two- lots of parsley, and my winter set of scallions are beginning to gain a little heft...
    The house is sad and less joyful with the departure of our dear buddy Kili back to the Cat House on the Kings, where they have told us he is coexisting well in the company of other cats, and he is apparently going to be much happier (and seems to remember the place from kittenhood) than he was defending our little yard from the seven other cats who make their homes here. And yes, it tore us up to give him up and send him away, but he refused to become an inside-at-night creature, and being a cat, my roommate decided it was best to change the situation for us than try to reprogram his eight year old brain any further, because THAT was not happening... Sometimes out of love you MUST give something you love up because best for all concerned. Carolyn was not getting a lick of sleep, and I was not far behind her. But I'll miss him, yes, very much. The CHOK says they will watch out for him, will continue to call him by name if they see him, and in other ways do all they can to ensure his safety in the general population.
    Meanwhile, Frankie the dog does not seem to miss the competition for her affections and attentions all so much, all too happy as well to not compete with mine, although he isn't going to get to sit on MY lap. He might pause to wonder, but I have seen other dogs in similar situations react with much more concern and curiosity as to "where did the cat go?" He's a rescue pet too, and he had it tough. So tough that he never saw food worth stealing he wouldn't want to. That included (s)- Kili's wet food, chicken that Kurt or myself bought which we turned our backs on, and the food on the front porches of our neighbors meant for the new little chihuahua puppy and the several cats across the way in the neighboring apartments.
     My friend Elizaveta (a penpal I made around 1989-90) in Kurtamysh, Kurgan, Russia, happened to witness the falling meteor yesterday, passing about 300 km from her location exploding over Chelyabinsk. Her son Cyril told me. I told him I had been concerned and thought of them, once I heard the news. But at least, they were not in Chelyabinsk at the time. I am so much more likely of getting creamed in a bike-car wreck than I am getting stoned by an asteroid, meteor, or terrorist attack...
     On the subject of terror attacks, I want to share with everyone how I cured my own personal paranoia...
In the early 1960's, Bob Dylan wrote a song called "Let Me Die In My Footsteps." This was all about the fallout-shelter paranoia years of the Cold War... basically the song says, if you love your country, do not fear to live inside it, go where you will, do what you want, if you're meant to go, then, "die in your footsteps." Better than to cringe in fear of something that may never come. And once I gave that song a few listens I had taken the advice to heart. It's as true of the "terrorist threat" as it was when the Cold War threatened to go hot. And people like Elizaveta and myself, we like to think, had a little to do with tearing down those walls erected by our nations to keep us all afraid of each other. "All over the world, people are people," she wrote to me two decades ago. You know it. All anyone wants or expects is the right to make a living, raise a family, and live with as little tragedy as possible, since every life is going to have a few of those. I can only pray that in coming years all this "endless war" bullshit comes to a screeching halt, and that my own country regains a little composure and respect in the eyes of the world community. If it keeps on losing it, I am pretty sure I am not going to be one of the factors. And a BIG thank you to all my readers, inside and outside the USA. Whoever you are, blessings to you all.


Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Excerpt from a Work In Progress 1-13


     Guru is thinking back on early childhood, his early adolescence. In the springtime halls of Keep Abbryggdd, the springtime was always celebrated with rituals- blessing of the Springs. Water fairies, his mother said, lived in the Spring. The Blessing of the Springs were a family tradition, just like the Toddy Festivals in Pondicherry. The legendary Abbryggdd Springs had been a destination for pilgrims up and down the Marches and even into Scotland for centuries. But now, commercialism, the need to weaning the National Trust from everyone’s mind about these days and the need to keep at least the local minister busy every year were a reason the family kept up indulgences, and appearances.
     The springs were in a sheltered dell around which some ancestral Abbryggdd or other had taken great care to constrain inside well fitted natural stonework, and then small niches were used for altars- candles, flowers, photographs, relics. These kind of things were immortalized there. For the sake of the water fairies, Guru would come there as a child and swimming in the spring-tub, the green leaves of the yew tree beside the stone well laughing down on him.
     Guru was remembering a day spent with Stokely after one of his spring-spring soaks.

     Stokely had driven him some ways off into the deepest gloom and wood of the Abbryggdd estate, where the forest sprites and elves lived for certain. If water elves could live on the edges of the Spring, then surely elves lived in the cast forested parklands.   
     Stokely stopped the car and got out. Standing with his hat in hand clasped to his chest, and his necktie blowing off to southeast,   he looked at Guru with darkened lowered eyes.
     “Here.”
     Guru just sat and looked at him. Seated as he was in the passenger seat of the car, looking west, past Stokely, out toward the Atlantic.
     “Here is the spot where I want you to bury me. When the time comes.”
     Guru hardly had a mind about where Stokely should be buried- he hardly even knew what death was, at that time in his life. But not many more years away would come the big lesson. Stokely was meaning to break the news, in his own stiff-necked way, however.
     But Stokely had also granted Guru a wisdom both far beyond his years or his doings, by virtue of his being the number one son, and only child to the lion of the clan, here coming to the end of his line, the end of his road. Certainly Genevieve knew what she meant when she had named him Guru. How long would he before Stokely saw his was just another person with feet of clay? All his life?
     Stokely never even knew of his own feet of clay let alone no child of his own. It was just up here at the top of the hill, only just so far enough as to lay open to every wind. Not the most comfortable place among the holdings, thought Guru, and now, years later, remembering Stokely- who now lay in rest at just that spot, inside a tall round marble columbarium surrounded by a number of irregular, highly suspect standing stones (the effect was as though a wealthy Roman patron had been placed right down in the center of a magic Celtic henge, all the more to beguile the tourists who would begin arriving in late March.

     Guru did not think much of the place then, back when Stokely had shown it to him, and now even with the grotesque monument erected around his mother and father;s bones, he barely contained a slight chuckle. It would be just his due, he thought. The columbarium had been built and dedicated to both his parents now some 25 years ago.
     Now it sat on the forsaken hilltop of the winds, where the mind of Stokely Abbryggdd will ever remain, neither blown by the breezes nor solid like the stolid-state-citizen that he had been. Disgruntled, of course, There had never been the due, the turning of the family’s tide, not during Stokely’s time, at least.
     Stokely and Percy Junior had been left with the larger office of keeping their lands free from “interlopers, varmints, and scalawags”- once the job of their antecedent the Thegn of Fishguard, the only dues the family owed Her Majesty were in general, the same lot as had been handed down year after year as the Barons Abbryggdd  over the centuries defended their realm – for themselves first and others later.
     While Guru didn’t think much of the place, and still didn’t, the place which Stokely had chosen to erect his “Temple to Bo’Canon” even yet dominated the hill, where once here had been only the sound of the wind and far away to the southwest was the ocean, blue, white, and shining in the distance.
Guru thought back to time again in his young past. The memory of his mother playing records in the living room, and the record spinning on the wooden console stereo which sat uplifted from the floor by four and a half wooden stem legs. His mother’s favorite record was the Welsh singer Mary Hopkin’s Post Card. His favorite song was “Young Love.” It might not have been a very typical thing for his mother to get into , but his mother had had some times herself, and had battened onto Mary Hopkin just at that time she came along to the public, through the Beatles, their Apple Records, and her hit song “Those Were The Days.” That was one Guru liked, but not as much as “Young Love” or his second favorite, “Love Is The Sweetest Thing.” Even “Voyage of the Moon” meant more to him than “Lord of the Reedy River.” Guru liked Mary Hopkin but loathed most of Donovan Leitch’s work. “Too fay, twee, and ponce, so far’s I care” he once said to friends, and not in jest.
At that time in her life, Genevieve Abbryggdd (nee Sante) took her own place among the Carnaby Street set. That, of course, was how she met Stokely, one night after a Kinks concert when all either of them could think about was “all day, and all of the night” running through their minds like two trains headed into a collision. When fire meets water, steam dissipates into the air. The last time she had had that time of passion with Stokely was probably about that long ago, also, once the bloom came off the rose, their marriage had turned into a business proposition.
Guru didn’t think about all that. He thought about the record only in terms of the sentimentality and old fashioned arrangements on most of the song- they seemed (to him) so evocative, lie, Britain before the Second World War, relaxing and enjoying her come sunny living, before (once again) another new generation of young men would be set before the grinder.
He got Mary Hopkin off his mind soon, however, walked over to the wall full of Roget and Desiree’s collected vinyl albums, and pulled down a record titled Steppenwolf’s Greatest Hits. He danced about their living room, luckily, neither of his hosts were home to see him making a fool of himself. But after another glass of scotch, he could get used to this.
John Kay’s buzzsaw lead guitar from “Magic Carpet Ride” drove an aural nail right across the room, as he danced, balancing the liquid in his glass carefully, so as not to spill any on the fine Persian carpet of his hosts.

     “Why don’t you come with me, little girl?” was the musical question. It remained to be seen who might show up to answer it. It could not be Desiree. That much was easy to see, and he need not concern himself, for Desiree had been playing Roget (again) as she often felt a need she might, partly out of listening to all Claudine’s advice, and partly for her own amusement.

(From Bus of Fools, a work in progress.)

Sunday, December 23, 2012

End of the World Blues

     December 21 came and went, and nobody blew off the planet except the usual small statistical portion of humans who succumb to the inevitability of fate and chance... A solstice, and once more, the days grow longer, if not necessarily warmer, up here in the Northern Hemisphere, anyway.
     People who claim "to know" the workings of the Creator are always predicting The End Is Nigh one way or another, one day or another. They are like spectators at a roulette table who are always betting on "21 Red!" Eventually, perhaps, 21 Red WILL come up, but meanwhile, the little elf who resides inside the roulette wheel just ticks the wheel over one more click, and of course, the gamers all lose, again. It's probably the most predictable thing about the entire game, that it just doesn't end.
     Really now, we are on this little marble spinning round in the sky for a limited amount of time enough as it is. Why give oneself over to fear of the "End of the World" when the end of your LIFE will eventually arrive, sooner than any of us would like, most likely, but with a much greater probability than that of the end of the PLANET! So don't listen to all these people who want to blame everyone and everything and lay an enormous guilt trip on people who probably don't even deserve it, just to justify their own moral hangups and hypocrisies and judgments of others.
     Do your best to be happy and make do with what you've got, let the Creator take care of it all. Isn't there something in Catholic theology about a "world without end?" Even so, why should God and the Angels say anything to us about it? And even if you are atheist and don't believe in "any of that shit"- most people are doing their best. Some of course, persist on making this earth a painful and doom-wracked place, but, the hell with them. Fear is a joy killer and the disease. Strive to be happy. To be able to laugh, at the end of your days, is to win it all.

Saturday, December 1, 2012

On Not Looking for Cows in Pear Trees

     I've been around the block a few times. The music industry never appealed much to me- after a good look or two into it. Being a "rock star" never much appealed to me, either, past the age of 35... Being "popular" on those sort of terms has never been a big goal of mine either- waking up with the whole world looking up one's posterior and judging one's every move- meh. Who needs That?
     The last year, however, has been one of shifting values and priorities. Yes, music is still what drives my life, yes, I still love to play it, and no, I have done little with it this last year for a couple of reasons. The first, achingly, is that I managed to whack my index fretting finger dead-on with a hammer while constructing a raised bed for my garden. This itself was enough to set back any plans I had for grabbing the few local gigs I might. The process of regaining my dexterity is yet ongoing, although the immediate nerve pain has more or less receded. This is called, "Learning Who You Are All Over Again."
     Secondly it has come to me just as certainly as it gainsays "Mid-Life Crisis" that my former purist wish to remain outside the pale of the "Oil-Serf Culture" has been - better or worse- an unsubstantiated moral victory which is called "winning the war but losing the battles." Peer pressure from fellow musicians- some unstated, others grudgingly acknowledged- has set me to rethink the entire idea of "just how attractive" are these Iron Ponies. So I am willing to surrender on that level, apparently of necessity, though it could yet be a while before you hear me brag about how "I finally have a license" and longer before you hear me say "OOOh I love my new Car." Cars are a pain in the ass to maintain and upkeep, & that I have been able to forego those costs has afforded me that much more money in my pocket for things I really wanted to gain or to do. An while I have not held a license I am certainly not ignorant of their mechanics nor of the skills needed to navigate the roadways. Surviving the past three years as a Silicon Valley bike commuter could not have happened had I no such awareness.
     Though it does seem a Pyhrric victory, at least I am sure my own carbon footprint in the end will be much less that of the majority of my peers, my friends, or the Rest of You. There is only so far one might take life, living with a guitar strapped on one's back, navigating the channels of traffic on a bicycle, as for one- where do you stick the amp?
     So you see, it all catches up with one eventually. Someday -not so far off I suppose- I will be unable to run across a street in a hurry- and Then I really Will want an auto. I do hope to be riding my bike all the rest of my days, however, the loss of mobility, the ability to just say "oh- so and so is playing this week, I'll drive over and join them" is too attractive, the inability to do so perhaps has dented my credibility with many of my erstwhile and respected friends and peers, anyway. So be it. I am not in this life to live up to your expectations, nor you, to live up to mine, but if I can create a life where the twain shall meet more beneficially, why not.
     I have a ways to go with all that, but the intent is there, and lest you dare call me hypocrite and Oil Serf  just yet as well, consider that I resisted it all these years. And did rather well for myself, regardless.